You're My Only

Honey you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby don't let me go
Baby cause I love you so
Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby I'll never let you go
Cause baby I love you so
Tell me that you love me too
Tell me that your heart is true

Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby I won't let you
Tell me it ain't true
I love you so
Baby I can't let go

Honey you're my only
Baby I love you
You're my only

Keep your promises
And I won't be afraid
The kisses that I gave you
Is a symbol that I love you

Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only
Baby you're my only
Honey how can this be
Baby you're my only
Honey you're my...
Only

*December 1996*

Set Aside

Feeling alone and set aside
Nowhere to go, no place to hide
Anger dominates my fear
Lonely and unwanted is what I hear
Smiles cover up my frown
Sadness kicks me when I'm down
Everything will be alright
Gotta stay and put up a fight
Shame something that is well known
Builds up and stays until it's shown
Tears filling in my eyes
My pain can't be measured in size
Heartbroken I run to forget
Nothing can ever make me upset
Lies I took and I now believe
Can't be set straight when I grieve
Feeling alone and set aside
Nowhere to go, no place to hide

*December 1996*

Je serai libre!

Si j'avais le courage de te dire ce que je pense.
Je serai libre... Je serai libre!
Le courage m'esquisse par chance et
je ne puisse pas te le dire.
Même si ma volonté t'appelle,
je ne suis pas capable de penser.
Sans toi puis-je vivre?
Vivre sans toi? Non! Jamais!
Pourais-je avoir ton silence,
sans geste de beauté?
Une foie plus tu m'appelles et
je viens dans tes bras.
Sans questions, sans demandes;
tu me prends et je suis à toi.
Non pas une possession mais
plutot une acolade d'amour.
Le courage ça vient d'en dedans
et ce n'est pas toujours évident qu'il est là.
Mais, c'est ce qui me pousse dans ta direction;
ça m'encourage d'avantage à poursuivre
mes rêves et mes ambitions.
Un jour... Un jour la chance de te les dires.
Tu en seras le premier à les entendre.
Et, finalementje serai libre!
Si javais le courage de te dire....
Si javais le courage...
Je serai libre!

Not Knowing

Gentle as a lamb
Free as a bird
People fearing what can
And not hearing a word

Supple as a fish
Green as a leaf
People thinking of wish
And not knowing to believe

*October 1996*

Salmon Arm, BC
May 2008

"Once you understand the silence that ties me to the reality of thought, you can understand the words that I try to interpret from it."

*October 1996*

Anything For Me

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

One day I awoke all alone
No-one to call my very own
Seems like yesterday I was in your arms
Laying beside your undeserving charms

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

Creeping up from the depths of my soul
I can't keep my self control
I want to shout and tell you to stay
Why did you have to go away

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

When I'd get home from work
I felt all alone
Couldn't sleep one wink at night
Don't know what went wrong

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry


*October 1996*

Mon petit chéri

Mon petit chéri
Qui cligne son oeil et sourit
Semble si gentil
Avec ses dents blanches qui brillent

Son petit humour
Qui fait rire pour des jours
Semble prendre mon silence
Avec un surplus d'une chance

Mon petit toutous
Qui caresse d'un touché doux
Semble savoir le comfort
Avec le chaleureux qui ressort

Son petit coeur
Qui bat fort sans peur
Semble généreux
Avec la tendresse qui est en feu

Mon petit chéri d'amour
Qui restera j'espère pour toujours
Semble si chouette
Avec son sourire, ses yeux bleux me respectent

*Septembre 1996*

When?

I've been down this road
Many times
Thinking will this hurt subside
With time
I can't sleep and can
Hardly eat
When will this pain
Admit defeat
Nothing seems right in this
Heart of mine
When will this pain
Admit defeat

*September 1996*

Torn

Torn between the both of them
Caught without knowing the truth
True emotions not wanting to show
Disappointment, sorrow and disbelief
Trust that people shall seek
Understanding not what happens
Tragedy strikes without warning
Conflicting in all discomfort
Understatements of past lies
Confrontations of much awkwardness

*September 1996*

Someone

Someone I keep close to my heart
Is dear to me
Hoping to stay close not to part
Dreams that will be

Someone I can cry or laugh to
Makes me smile
Hoping you know without a clue
Happiness for a while

Someone who comforts with hugged embrace
With an open arm
Hoping not to lose the gift of grace
He'll keep me from harm

Someone who enjoys fine company
Awakens his mind
Hoping to keep his honest dignity
Knowing to be kind

Someone is this little man
Who is a real sweetie
Hoping that it still means you can
As you are my little cutie

*September 1996*

Daniel

Daniel, Daniel, Daniel tu es un bon ami
Il y a aucun mot qui te décrit
Sans le savoir tu es un vrai défit
Daniel, Daniel, Daniel les yeux bleux qui ressort
Les filles qui te parcourent te disent; "je t'adore!"
Car mon ami Daniel vaut plus que de l'or

*septembre 1996*

Suffocated

Hands surrounding the throat
Anger is what possesses this action
My life flashing, I think I'm gonna croak
Permanently damaging there is no resolution
Air cut off there's no more breath
Sensations lost it can't be much longer
If my life is useless this should be my death
Privacy? Mine no longer! This means I'm a gonner

*August 1996*

To Feel

Wanting to hold someone so close to me
Is a wish I've wanted to hear this sincerity
The need for closeness is always on my mind
My true feelings for him can never be left behind
A touch resulting in soothing relief
Is a sign of my loosened grief
Fingers running through my hair
Shows me he isn't afraid to care
Pressed closely to feel his heartbeat next to mine
Beating as one, it sends shivers down my spine
Wanting to hold someone so close to me
Never letting go to feel this passion and sincerity

*August 1996*

Untitled

Torn between two and one
Is life so full beyond no-one
Torn between one and two
Knowing not what to do

*August 1996*

Searching to Find

Searching to find one
I can call my own
Isn't a task quite as simple
As wounds permanently sewn

Searching to find one
I can call my mate
Isn't a task quite as simple
As tears shed by a date

Searching to find one
I can all my pet
Isn't a task quite as simple
As denied love that we fret

Searching to find one
I can call my sweet
Isn't a task quite as simple
As meetings made so discreet

Searching to find one
I can call my soul
Isn't a task quite as simple
As hearts broken beyond control

Searching to find one
Who is truly mine
Isn't a task simply because
Things come to those in time

*August 1996*

Lost Loves

Feeling your heartbeat close to mine
Makes me wish it could last
Running your fingers through my hair
Sends shivers down my spine
Surrounding grips gave away the past
Lost loves who prevent me to care

*August 1996*

Down N Out

When you're feeling down n out
Its no wonder you frown n pout
Wandering through life without a doubt
Makes you want to scream n shout

Concern means nothing in this war
It's no wonder you've left n slammed the door
Leaving me no more choice, I'm poor
Without your love I'm nothing except sore

*August 1996*

Couldn't Share

If I felt the way I did
I couldn't help it yet, I hid
Burning desires that were there
Couldn't show it, couldn't care
My fears they were very real
Couldn't share with him my ordeal
Getting close my nerves were gone
Couldn't know all I've seen since dawn
Commitment a forbidden word to this man
Couldn't stay with one faithful woman
My fears they were very real
Couldn't share with him my ordeal

*August 1996*

Toujours là

Une distance les sépare du temps
Ce n'est rien à eux en ces moments.
Conquérir leur amour reste fort
Dominant jusqu'à la veillée est tard.
Ayant confiance leurs forces sont bien
Diminuant Non! même s'ils ont rien.
La solitude ils en connaissent pas
Car ils se tiennent et seront tourjours là.

*aout 1996*

Unable to

Unable to sleep
I turn to weep
Past events.
Unable to cry
I turn and sigh
Past love.
Unable to grieve
I turn to leave
Past memories.
Unable to talk
I turn and walk
Past angers.
Unable to sleep,
Cry, grieve or talk
I turn to weep,
Sigh, leave and walk
Past events, loves,
Memories and angers.
I'm unable to deal
With all life's dangers.
I'm unable to...
Unable to...
Unable...

*July 1996*