Suffocated

Hands surrounding the throat
Anger is what possesses this action
My life flashing, I think I'm gonna croak
Permanently damaging there is no resolution
Air cut off there's no more breath
Sensations lost it can't be much longer
If my life is useless this should be my death
Privacy? Mine no longer! This means I'm a gonner

*August 1996*

Sadness

My life is dark and empty
meaningless and continues for no reason
It's a wave that no-one sees
It's the year going through lonely seasons

Friends I once knew to be very near
Have grown apart and left me
All the memories I hold very dear
I can no longer bear to see

No-one told me it would be like this
No-one even seemed to care
Sadness came and stole a kiss
with a cold and icy glare

The shadows closing in on me
cornering me till I feel small
The screams of pain and agony
unbearable through it all

Depression overcomes my soul
with deep and dark despair
No time to overcome my goal
No time to even care

Alone and in the way
is how I feel inside
They smile and tell me to stay
Not noticing the tears I cried

The feeling that no-one cared
rushed upon me like a misty night
I was no longer scared
I felt the time was right

My life was coming to an end
No-one would ever understand
how I felt deep within

When soon I'm dead and gone
They'll regret what they had done
When comes the light of dawn
For once I will have won

What I did I can not undo
The choice was only mine
When sadness completely possesses you
It's only a matter of time

*1992*

Soaring Spirit

Alone he was without love
Now he's free as a dove
Old yet, very kind
A child ruled his mind
The silence went away
As night came to day
Nobody knew he was there
Except children who really care
Long forgotten he is no more
As the spirits always soar
Kind and sweet was this man
Knowing that he really can
Selfish he was not
Presents he always bought
Tears seem to fill his eyes
Knowing that he never cries
Misunderstood he would be
For his soul wasn't free
Pleasing not himself but, others
Leaves him with little bothers
Painted smile on his face
For he knows he'll lose this race
Joy and warmth filled his heart
Yet, he knew he had to part
Alone he is no more
For his spirit will always soar

*1994*