My Lost Angel

A budding cell growing from within
me; A heartbeat, a glance,
a wish, a hope, a miracle,
a life!

Within my womb my angel's
protected; Unknowing,
perfection, loving, abundant,
grateful.

Wonderment of life a bewildered
mother to be; Joyous, fearful
smiling, crying, laughing,
intrigued!

Precious soul bestowed to health
and growth; Unique, Gifted
humbled, A grace within
me!

A moment of disbelief this joy
was ended; so little,
so innocent, so tragic, so
sad.

A mother's turmoil of miscarriage
a burden within her soul; anger,
sadness, resentment, frustration,
despair.

Grateful I am for the moment
in my journey to have had
such a special
soul.

I grieved my lost angel and have
comfort in knowing; with time
the wounds will
pass.

I send you love my lost angel
in hopes you find serenity within
spirit and join the oneness
once more!

December 2, 2007

Anything For Me

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

One day I awoke all alone
No-one to call my very own
Seems like yesterday I was in your arms
Laying beside your undeserving charms

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

Creeping up from the depths of my soul
I can't keep my self control
I want to shout and tell you to stay
Why did you have to go away

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

When I'd get home from work
I felt all alone
Couldn't sleep one wink at night
Don't know what went wrong

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry


*October 1996*

Unable to

Unable to sleep
I turn to weep
Past events.
Unable to cry
I turn and sigh
Past love.
Unable to grieve
I turn to leave
Past memories.
Unable to talk
I turn and walk
Past angers.
Unable to sleep,
Cry, grieve or talk
I turn to weep,
Sigh, leave and walk
Past events, loves,
Memories and angers.
I'm unable to deal
With all life's dangers.
I'm unable to...
Unable to...
Unable...

*July 1996*

Untitled

Walking by a dark, sombre road
Fearing all that is bestowed
Looking past all assumptions
Hurting for past deceptions
Thinking of feelings lost in grief
Carrying these thoughts with disbelief
Being nothing in ones eye
Passing chances going by
Torturing souls that get too near
Delighting urges that they should fear

*March 1996*

Caused By Disbelief

Darkness overcame this happy soul
Losing almost all her control
Keeping everything locked up inside
All her emotions no longer want to hide
Creeping shadows not wanting to part
Knowing not how or when to start
Nothing ever seems to make sense
Maybe that's why she's so tense
Sadness seems to fill her days
Not losing one minute of this craze
Lonely she lives with all fear
Drawing away from all who are near
Seeing nothing more than grief
All this caused by disbelief
Such unhappiness in her life
Wanting to stop all this strife
Pain and sorrow are all she knows
This fleeting feeling never goes

*1994/1995*