Sadness

My life is dark and empty
meaningless and continues for no reason
It's a wave that no-one sees
It's the year going through lonely seasons

Friends I once knew to be very near
Have grown apart and left me
All the memories I hold very dear
I can no longer bear to see

No-one told me it would be like this
No-one even seemed to care
Sadness came and stole a kiss
with a cold and icy glare

The shadows closing in on me
cornering me till I feel small
The screams of pain and agony
unbearable through it all

Depression overcomes my soul
with deep and dark despair
No time to overcome my goal
No time to even care

Alone and in the way
is how I feel inside
They smile and tell me to stay
Not noticing the tears I cried

The feeling that no-one cared
rushed upon me like a misty night
I was no longer scared
I felt the time was right

My life was coming to an end
No-one would ever understand
how I felt deep within

When soon I'm dead and gone
They'll regret what they had done
When comes the light of dawn
For once I will have won

What I did I can not undo
The choice was only mine
When sadness completely possesses you
It's only a matter of time

*1992*

Caused By Disbelief

Darkness overcame this happy soul
Losing almost all her control
Keeping everything locked up inside
All her emotions no longer want to hide
Creeping shadows not wanting to part
Knowing not how or when to start
Nothing ever seems to make sense
Maybe that's why she's so tense
Sadness seems to fill her days
Not losing one minute of this craze
Lonely she lives with all fear
Drawing away from all who are near
Seeing nothing more than grief
All this caused by disbelief
Such unhappiness in her life
Wanting to stop all this strife
Pain and sorrow are all she knows
This fleeting feeling never goes

*1994/1995*

Wouldn't Be Bought

Pain and sorrow in her mind
Nothing's ever very kind
Misery overtook her soul
Now she dwells in a deep hole
Wanting to break through the walls
As she walks down the halls
Can't even hold her fear
She's afraid that they'll hear
Troubles left and right
She'll stand up and fight
Looking for a friend
Will the shouting ever end
Her feelings locked up inside
They can no longer hide
Crying inside day and night
She isn't a pretty sight
Violence is the only way
For those people to pay
Yet, her heart knows the pain
And people think she's insane
Thinking of things they once said
Terrible memories stay in her head
Afraid of what people thought
Her soul wouldn't be bought

*1994/1995*

Untitled

Blocked out memories brought to mind
Unending agony that was so unkind
Depression filled all life's happiness
Unseen gestures made in darkness

*1994/1995*