My Lost Angel

A budding cell growing from within
me; A heartbeat, a glance,
a wish, a hope, a miracle,
a life!

Within my womb my angel's
protected; Unknowing,
perfection, loving, abundant,
grateful.

Wonderment of life a bewildered
mother to be; Joyous, fearful
smiling, crying, laughing,
intrigued!

Precious soul bestowed to health
and growth; Unique, Gifted
humbled, A grace within
me!

A moment of disbelief this joy
was ended; so little,
so innocent, so tragic, so
sad.

A mother's turmoil of miscarriage
a burden within her soul; anger,
sadness, resentment, frustration,
despair.

Grateful I am for the moment
in my journey to have had
such a special
soul.

I grieved my lost angel and have
comfort in knowing; with time
the wounds will
pass.

I send you love my lost angel
in hopes you find serenity within
spirit and join the oneness
once more!

December 2, 2007

Learning to Live Again

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Opening up your heart
Wishing he could stay
Unknowing thoughts evade
With tears of grief colliding

Unspoken desires of fate
Breaking all the rules
Fighting to keep sane
The virtues brought afoot

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Disasters slowly erupt
Depression cannot win
Search of self begins
Fleeing from my thoughts

Distances with time enlight
Gaining a little strength
Fires of rage ignite
Hope clings with fear

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Wanting things to hide
Comes from deep within
Smiling to please my friends
Eases not my peace of mind

Missing him with all my soul
A piece of hope remains
Painful undercurrents stirs
A glimpse of eluded happiness

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Shred of dignity still remain
A broken heart might heal
Keeping faith within a friendship
Knowing I love him still

Precious moments kept at bay
Cherished memories I'll always keep
May every day give me strength
Hopeful, I must survive

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Learning to live again
Wouldn't seem so hard
Learning to live again
With myself for me to love

December 26 2000