Felt Your Presence

I woke up one morning
and felt your presence
You are my blessing
of pure essence!

Looking through your eyes
purity of the soul
You are my treasure wise
a spirits gift to hold!

Grateful I am today
beauty is your heart
Love is here to stay
For light and hope is our start!

December 2006

Dedicated to my daughter Arielle.

Learning to Live Again

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Opening up your heart
Wishing he could stay
Unknowing thoughts evade
With tears of grief colliding

Unspoken desires of fate
Breaking all the rules
Fighting to keep sane
The virtues brought afoot

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Disasters slowly erupt
Depression cannot win
Search of self begins
Fleeing from my thoughts

Distances with time enlight
Gaining a little strength
Fires of rage ignite
Hope clings with fear

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Wanting things to hide
Comes from deep within
Smiling to please my friends
Eases not my peace of mind

Missing him with all my soul
A piece of hope remains
Painful undercurrents stirs
A glimpse of eluded happiness

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Shred of dignity still remain
A broken heart might heal
Keeping faith within a friendship
Knowing I love him still

Precious moments kept at bay
Cherished memories I'll always keep
May every day give me strength
Hopeful, I must survive

Learning to live again
Never seemed so hard
Learning to live again
Without the one I love

Learning to live again
Wouldn't seem so hard
Learning to live again
With myself for me to love

December 26 2000

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes
and lay down to rest
I see your face
with a deep pain in my chest
I lay awake
and wonder why
So many questions
tormenting my thoughts

When I close my eyes
and remember precious moments
I can't understand
the underlying undercurrents
I am wounded
on a deeper sense
Without confidence
I enter despair

When I close my eyes
and shed my tears
I hold some hope
with very many fears
I am surrounded
and worrisome of what's to come
Holding on to something
I know is worth fighting for

December 2000

Circumstances keep 'em apart
Stirring feelings from the heart

Binded through an eternal soul
Bleeds grief beyond control

Tortured mind bewilders all
Wondered expressions make the call

Magnetic being draws them in
It's up to fate to let it begin

Soaring through life's big journey
Corrupted with pain and agony

Seeking truth beyond the surface
Unruly acts that are quite selfless

Quiet longing from a distance
Bringing hopeful twists in reminiscence

Images flooding a budding core
Fearing things that are in store

Burning desires locked away
Knowing not to this day

Wanting to know if there is a chance
Afraid to look within this glance

Surges of insight within the mind
Powerful emotions make 'em blind

Intellectual stimulation entrances the spirit
Unwilling to live without it

Pursuit of knowledge for stability
Follows them throughout infinity

Matches made with strength and grace
Something loneliness just can't replace

June 15 1999

Your Eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you kneeling before me
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you reaching out for me
Your soul
You touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you standing beside me
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you strong holding me
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you embracing me gently
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see you, a surprise to me
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes
I see your hopes teasing me
Your soul
Your touch
You've loved so much
When I look into your eyes

September 1998

Why's This So?

Crying in all sorrow
Thinking there's no tomorrow
Feeling empty and hollow
Wondering which road to follow
Crouching close to the ground, so low
Rocking myself to and fro
Can't stay, but also can't go
Leaning towards the brightest glow
Not able to reach it, Why's that so?

*April 1996*

Wishing I Could

Wishing I could see your eyes
Underneath the stars at night
Wanting to hold you by my side

Wishing I could see your smile
As we walked only for a while
Keeping you close to only me

Wishing I could see your face
Over this sweet embrace
Caressing you for eternity

Wishing I could be with you
Deciding what we should do
Risking to keep the dream that's true

*October 1995*

Risks

Seize the moments, they don't last forever
Grasp the options, they won't be there long
Snatch the chances before they disappear
Take a risk before all hope dissolves
Many moments are taken for granted
Chances come but, only for a while
All options are your decisions
Risking it all to fulfill your dreams

*October 1995*