A Sunless Day

A sunless day cannot cloud

the image of you

I carry within my mind

A sunless day cannot cloud

the thoughts of you

I carry within my soul

A sunless day cannot cloud

the essence of you

I carry within my heart

A sunless day cannot cloud

Anything about you

So long as I have you

*July 2008*

My Lost Angel

A budding cell growing from within
me; A heartbeat, a glance,
a wish, a hope, a miracle,
a life!

Within my womb my angel's
protected; Unknowing,
perfection, loving, abundant,
grateful.

Wonderment of life a bewildered
mother to be; Joyous, fearful
smiling, crying, laughing,
intrigued!

Precious soul bestowed to health
and growth; Unique, Gifted
humbled, A grace within
me!

A moment of disbelief this joy
was ended; so little,
so innocent, so tragic, so
sad.

A mother's turmoil of miscarriage
a burden within her soul; anger,
sadness, resentment, frustration,
despair.

Grateful I am for the moment
in my journey to have had
such a special
soul.

I grieved my lost angel and have
comfort in knowing; with time
the wounds will
pass.

I send you love my lost angel
in hopes you find serenity within
spirit and join the oneness
once more!

December 2, 2007

Breath of A Shattered Soul

Surrounded by sweet sounding deception
Lies caught in worded session
Hatred, anger, hurt and disgust
Admissions of misguided trust

Stabbing pains, bewildered heart
Closure needed for a new start

Sneaking suspicions open old wounds
Characters cheated of honesty too soon
Sorry's galore can never replace
Dreams thwarted in one embrace

Alas, these feelings must be heard
No heated moments in absurd word

Grieve the loss but remember the journey
Mercy is needed on this cursed memory

Forgiveness the breath of a shattered soul
Remembering, awakening to feel whole

November 25, 2006

Alluring Blues

A sparkled descent from the stargazed soul
Inspired affinity from truths unknown
Perspective gained in this infamous glimpse
Brings shivers to the hearts content
Mystical glance bewilders the senses
Captured essences of blissful truth
Alluring blues look deep within
Smiles loom where it begins

September 22 2003

The Obstacle Exists No More

One life completes another,
Without regret and without faults...
The obstacle exists no more!

One gesture of friendship felt,
Movements of forces established...
The obstacle exists no more!

One soul rejoins its flame,
Ceasing and staying together...
The obstacle exists no more!

One heart keeps itself open,
The image has become clear...
The obstacle exists no more!

November 15, 2002

This is the translated version of L'obstacle n'existe plus!

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes
and lay down to rest
I see your face
with a deep pain in my chest
I lay awake
and wonder why
So many questions
tormenting my thoughts

When I close my eyes
and remember precious moments
I can't understand
the underlying undercurrents
I am wounded
on a deeper sense
Without confidence
I enter despair

When I close my eyes
and shed my tears
I hold some hope
with very many fears
I am surrounded
and worrisome of what's to come
Holding on to something
I know is worth fighting for

December 2000

taking all that we've got

Forced smiles on their face
they live in all disgrace
mocking words turn to fear
they knew not what they'd hear
pain seen in one's eye
the truth they can't deny
whispers meant to be heard
they don't say just one word
seeking peace at one's side
they can not so they hide
lives turned upside down
they will always frown
wanting to heal the inner self
pushed aside on a shelf
only if their hearts would see
they would all be set free
blocking out all emotions
they have no devotions
forgiving souls they have not
taking all that we've got

*1997*

Stood Up

Stood up, he stands out above all the rest.
Stood up, I shan't be budged from my perception.
Stood up, he speaks out against all who oppose him.
Stood up, I'm denied my true feelings of thought.
Stood up, he plays and smile and draws me in.
Stood up, I regret and weep and want him more.
Stood up, he overpowers my sensations and laughs.
Stood up, I curse in wallowed emotions of untamed convictions.
Stood up, he knows not nor does he seem to care.
Stood up, I crave his affection in anger and in hope...
Stood up, I'll never forget the feelings inside.
Stood up, forgettably unforgiving.

*January 1997*

You're My Only

Honey you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby don't let me go
Baby cause I love you so
Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby I'll never let you go
Cause baby I love you so
Tell me that you love me too
Tell me that your heart is true

Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only

Baby I won't let you
Tell me it ain't true
I love you so
Baby I can't let go

Honey you're my only
Baby I love you
You're my only

Keep your promises
And I won't be afraid
The kisses that I gave you
Is a symbol that I love you

Baby you're my only
Honey you're my only
Baby you're my only
Honey how can this be
Baby you're my only
Honey you're my...
Only

*December 1996*

Set Aside

Feeling alone and set aside
Nowhere to go, no place to hide
Anger dominates my fear
Lonely and unwanted is what I hear
Smiles cover up my frown
Sadness kicks me when I'm down
Everything will be alright
Gotta stay and put up a fight
Shame something that is well known
Builds up and stays until it's shown
Tears filling in my eyes
My pain can't be measured in size
Heartbroken I run to forget
Nothing can ever make me upset
Lies I took and I now believe
Can't be set straight when I grieve
Feeling alone and set aside
Nowhere to go, no place to hide

*December 1996*

Anything For Me

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

One day I awoke all alone
No-one to call my very own
Seems like yesterday I was in your arms
Laying beside your undeserving charms

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

Creeping up from the depths of my soul
I can't keep my self control
I want to shout and tell you to stay
Why did you have to go away

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry

When I'd get home from work
I felt all alone
Couldn't sleep one wink at night
Don't know what went wrong

My baby would do anything for me
Treated me well, some kind of royalty
Until the day he left without saying goodbye
I told myself never again will I cry


*October 1996*

Someone

Someone I keep close to my heart
Is dear to me
Hoping to stay close not to part
Dreams that will be

Someone I can cry or laugh to
Makes me smile
Hoping you know without a clue
Happiness for a while

Someone who comforts with hugged embrace
With an open arm
Hoping not to lose the gift of grace
He'll keep me from harm

Someone who enjoys fine company
Awakens his mind
Hoping to keep his honest dignity
Knowing to be kind

Someone is this little man
Who is a real sweetie
Hoping that it still means you can
As you are my little cutie

*September 1996*

To Feel

Wanting to hold someone so close to me
Is a wish I've wanted to hear this sincerity
The need for closeness is always on my mind
My true feelings for him can never be left behind
A touch resulting in soothing relief
Is a sign of my loosened grief
Fingers running through my hair
Shows me he isn't afraid to care
Pressed closely to feel his heartbeat next to mine
Beating as one, it sends shivers down my spine
Wanting to hold someone so close to me
Never letting go to feel this passion and sincerity

*August 1996*

Lost Loves

Feeling your heartbeat close to mine
Makes me wish it could last
Running your fingers through my hair
Sends shivers down my spine
Surrounding grips gave away the past
Lost loves who prevent me to care

*August 1996*

Down N Out

When you're feeling down n out
Its no wonder you frown n pout
Wandering through life without a doubt
Makes you want to scream n shout

Concern means nothing in this war
It's no wonder you've left n slammed the door
Leaving me no more choice, I'm poor
Without your love I'm nothing except sore

*August 1996*

Couldn't Share

If I felt the way I did
I couldn't help it yet, I hid
Burning desires that were there
Couldn't show it, couldn't care
My fears they were very real
Couldn't share with him my ordeal
Getting close my nerves were gone
Couldn't know all I've seen since dawn
Commitment a forbidden word to this man
Couldn't stay with one faithful woman
My fears they were very real
Couldn't share with him my ordeal

*August 1996*

Unable to

Unable to sleep
I turn to weep
Past events.
Unable to cry
I turn and sigh
Past love.
Unable to grieve
I turn to leave
Past memories.
Unable to talk
I turn and walk
Past angers.
Unable to sleep,
Cry, grieve or talk
I turn to weep,
Sigh, leave and walk
Past events, loves,
Memories and angers.
I'm unable to deal
With all life's dangers.
I'm unable to...
Unable to...
Unable...

*July 1996*

These Are

These are my eyes
when they are blue
They seem so sad
when I'm not with you

These are my lips
when they smile bright
They seem so happy
when I feel alright

These are my cheeks
when they are rosy
They seem to glow
when I feel cozy

These are my hands
when they are warm
They seemed so soft
when I was born

This is my heart
when it is giving
It seems to pound
when I am loving

*July 1996*

Turned Out Sad

Thoughts re-entering my mind

Past events that were left behind
Confusions taken for granted
Knowing not why I'm haunted

Gathering notions that seem true
Comparing them without a clue
Nothing ever looked so bad
Ashamed feelings turned out sad

*July 1996*

Sometimes

Sometimes it seems like nobody's there
And sometimes it feels that they just don't care
But, sometimes it's alright to fight them to say
Sometimes it takes someone to show them the way

But, begging you please, sweetly I ask
Comparing our notes is a simple task
Completing the reasons you need no more grief
But, all is forgotten if you simply believe

Sometimes it takes one simple step
And sometimes we need a little "pep"
But sometimes our feelings heal in due time
As long as it's only sometimes

*April 1996*